Monday, October 31, 2011

Loving it, Loving Him!!

The last two weeks have been amazing! No work, and spending all day with my love! The ceremony went great as well as the reception afterwords in Idaho. It was great to see all of my family show up to support me and Amilton. We also had a reception in Utah mostly for Amiltons friends. We had a great turn out, and I was amazed at how fast the food left the table. Now if I can only learn how to dance... :/
And as a side note, I LOVE being married. Everything about it, going to sleep with him and knowing he will be there when I wake up. It gives me a reason to try even harder to improve in every aspect of my life. I love how Amilton takes care of me and wants the best for me. I also love being able to have someone to take care of too. He makes me feel important and needed. I love Amilton and all that he does for me. I cant wait to learn Portuguese and meet his family next year. I cant wait for all experiences ahead, and am so excited for the journey. :)
Pictures to come...

Sunday, August 7, 2011

Engaged! and other stuff...

Its official, I am engaged! Well it has been official for a while, I just am a bit behind. I am excited, but am not really liking the planning. It just stresses me out when I think of all that needs to be done. We are getting married in Idaho, and will have a reception there. One week later we will have another reception in Utah. For now, it is just a civil marriage, but we are planning on getting sealed in the temple in about year! I cant wait! It is great to feel like life is going somewhere and that I am actually working towards something, and that I can me sealed to Amilton and my family now, and my future family for eternity. I can't wait to start my own little family!
We are planning on going to Brazil next summer :) My first time there, not to mention my first time out of the US (Except maybe Canada when I was little, not sure). I am already getting excited for that and the chance to meet all Amiltons family there. Now I just need to get a passport...

And everything else is good except for the other stuff...
Things have come up that have been causing a small amount of tension between me and Amilton, which sucks. I just want the things to go away and be over with. But some people are just not understanding that and won't let things from the past go. I cant wait to be able to call that all done and move on to a the future, a better life.
Also, I have this habit of over thing things and a lack of trust. Things have happened in the past that makes it hard for me to trust people, and now I am taking it out on Amilton. I am trying not to, it is not fair for him, but it is hard for me to fully trust anyone. I just hope I get over it, Amilton has done nothing to lose my trust so I am trying my best to give it all to him.
And then the over thinking. Oh boy, it gets me into a lot of trouble and a lot of sleepless nights. Here it is almost 5 AM, no sleep for me yet. I keep trying but then just lay awake with no sleep in sight. It is frustrating. My mind is just too busy with worries, and doubts, and fears, and sorrow.
Of course there is thoughts about the wedding and joy keeping me up to. But right now its mostly everything else. I just need to stop worrying and move on with life.

But on a good note, I love Amilton, and am so excited for the future. I have no doubts about if it is the right thing to do, I know it is! I just have a few things I need to work on to make my life and his life a lot easier and less complicated. Haha.

And thats all I have to say about that, good night for now. Sorry to bore all of you who actually read this.

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

Moving Forward!

Life is good... :) I am having a hard time giving my heart away again. But fortunately I have found a man that is worth it. It is hard to trust and love someone when you have lost trust and love in the not so distant past. It has not been easy, but I am trying my best. I am in LOVE. It feels great. To have someone who you know and can tell that they truly care about you for who you are. Its great to have someone who does not take advantage of you, who opens doors, who tells the truth and is open about their past. Its great to have found the one you know you want to spend the rest of your life and eternity with. I am excited to see how things go and where life takes me... I have a feeling BRAZIL is in my near future!!!

A new favorite show: Prison Break
New goals I have: learn to dance, learn Portuguese (26 down, many more to go), read the scriptures every day, pray, attend church regularly

My idea for my future has changes so much over the last month but I am really loving it.

More about my man:
tall, dark and handsome :)
knows when to laugh
and knows when to be serious
good with words
cares about me and how I feel
family oriented
love his smile
taller than me
knows what he wants from life
knows how to swim
loves the church
helps me grow stronger in the church
can cook
honest
tells me how he feels
open about the past
knows how to listen
tells his family about me
talks to me with respect
spends time with me and my family
opens doors
likes a clean house
teaches me Portuguese
likes to have fun

Amilton, Eu te amo!


Anyhow,
I am currently at my cousin Beccas house, and got to meet her new little boy, Connor. 10 days with her, its been great, all except the weather. About 110 every day so far. Still working on my sunburn though so I can get tan. But perfect weather to go swimming, as long as you stay in the water. Enjoying time with my cousin and her baby, its been great talking to Becca about the past, present, and future.

Life is moving forward and I am loving it!